Well, this is it. They think it’s all over. It is now.
The end.
Fin.
My last day ever as a stay at home Dad. Tomorrow I start work in the library and that coupled with my ukulele lessons takes me up to full time. It’s Sharon’s turn now and to be fair it’s going to be harder for her as she’ll have two to look after. For me though, the dream is over!
It has been both hard and enjoyable, crazy and incredible. I’ve had the lows like Sandy and I being poorly, the highs of picnics in the park, and the downright silly like Sandy’s spider eating antics and my accidental displays of public nudity. All in all it’s been a blast and a time that I will cherish in my memory for all eternity.
People warned me it would be hard. Nothing can prepare you though for something like trying to deal with a poorly teething baby when you’ve had three hours sleep. You just have to get on with it and learn how to cope. And that’s the thing. Employers look down on people taking a break to raise children but I’ll tell you what, the skills I’ve learned in the last year outweigh anything I’ve learned in the workplace. Multitasking? Try hoovering a three floor house with a toddler under your arm, dinner in the oven, whilst simultaneously planning in you head what you’re going to do for the rest of the week. Patience? Try keeping your head on two hours sleep whilst your child screams in your ear all night when they should be sleeping. Organisation? Try planning a week worth of meals (three a day) on a budget, your baby activities, sleep patterns, doctors appointments, housework, visits, chores. I could go on, but you see what I mean.
And what I mean is it hasn’t been a waste. Anything but. And it should never be viewed that way. Being a stay at home parent is a full
Time job. It has made me a better person, not just in fatherhood but in all parts of life. At least I think so.
The other thing they don’t tell you before you become a stay at home parent; it’s fun! Sure, it’s hard and at times you’re pulling your hair out, but there are so many magic moments along the way. All those happy moments in the library, at picnics, walks by the river, playing games. The best bit is seeing your child develop and grow before your eyes. It’s incredible. When I started as stay at home Dad Sandy could barely crawl. As I type this she’s running around the picnic blanket and helping herself to a ham sandwich.
It’s been the best.
It’s over now and I am sad, but I’m also trying to concentrate on the positives. I’m looking forward to something different and having adult conversations more than a few times a week. I’m looking forward to quiet moments alone, even if it’s just my drive to and from work.
But I’m going to miss Sandy so much. I don’t know if I’ve ever told you how amazing it is to know that wherever you go you have this little person next to you that loves you unconditionally. It’s comforting, reassuring and, well, lovely. I’ll miss that. I know I’m biased, but I think my daughter is amazing. I know I’ll see her now and then through the week but I’ll miss those constant smiles, giggles, kisses and cuddles.
Ok, I’m rambling. I have to end this somehow.
Well, let me end by saying this isn’t the end! I’m going to continue to blog. I’ve loved telling you about my days and having support and friendship there at all times. It’s been amazing. So if you don’t mind, I’ll keep writing to you and continue the journey. I’ll let you know how my return to work goes, I’ll tell you about the move and hopefully more excitingly, I’ll write to you about the birth of our second child.
I can’t always guarantee that my blogs will be as long or insightful (not that they always are now!) Some days I’ll be too tired to write much. But I’ll always write as long as you want me too. I enjoy it too much to stop.
So thanks for everything.
Thanks for being part of it all.
It’s been emotional!
See you soon,
Matt & Sandy.x
Things I learned today: it’s the end of an era. After 323 days of stay at home fatherhood it comes to an end.
Poos: 1.
Daddy skills: 10/10. C’mon, I’ve got to do it once?!
Sleep last night: 6 hours.